A homemake for 4 years

On this day 4 years ago, we were at Cameron Highlands and then went to Ipoh to my parent’s house. We were in Ipoh actually to pick up Hannah, my second daughter who was only 8 months old then. I sent her back to my mother for 2 months as I was in the midst of quitting my job.

So July 2004, I was officially a stay-at-home-mum, a homemaker, a housewife, a full time mother. It has been 4 years…….. I still recall the 1st year staying at home taking care of a baby and a 4 year old toddler, having minimum contact with my friends and ex-colleagues, the only news I get everyday was through the newspaper, always longing to go to church and cell group – only time to ‘see’ people, having screaming at Alyssa (eldest daughter) constantly on every bit of wrong doing, etc. That was a long, long year.

However, with God’s grace, I slowly got used to staying at home. In fact, these days I am quite reluctant to go out unless it was for a very good reason. Since petrol price keep increasing, it’s also wiser not to drive out so much. Contribute less pollution to the environment too.

Since staying at home, my relationship with hubby got better and we have came a stage where oftentimes we can read each other’s mind. My two girls are very well behaved. They seldom fall sick, even if they are sick, they recover quickly and seldom need to see doctor.

So, for the years to come, I hope to spend more time with Alyssa on her studies and her personal growth, groom Hannah as she has some talents and intelligence too, be more discipline in doing regular exercise (age catching up, gotto take very good care of my health). Of course I shall continue to be a faithful loving wife to my beloved hubby, a loving daughter to my parents and a good daughter-in-law to my in laws.

Last time I didn’t think that I could handle all these. Never thought that I could quit my job which time was filled with organizing events after events and get to mingle with lots of people. Very exciting and seldom get bored. But well, 4 years has passed since then. Sometimes I do wonder what if I just continue working and leave the children to babysitter. Only pick them back after work. Will Alyssa and Hannah be the same?

I believe God has a plan for me and my family. He will also provide our needs according to the right time. If I quit my job after having Alyssa, my hubby and I probably will be quarrelling everyday over financial issue. At the moment, we live a simple life and are very happy together. I pray that we will walk closely to God and listen to Him more.